Worse

This morning I couldn't leave the house for work. My wife was having a severe anxiety attack. She has had anxiety issues all the while I have known her, and before, but never so severe that she couldn't bear to be left alone at home. Her anti-depressants are doing this, one of the possible side effects is that anxiety sufferers might feel more anxious for the first two weeks or so whilst the medication builds up.

We'd arranged for a friend to help her get to and from the school with the kids but this meant that she would be alone for 30 minutes or so after I left for work. She couldn't bear this and just sat on the bathroom floor sobbing.

I had to call work and take the day off. Thankfully they've been very understanding and supportive. This is just as well really because the recovery will take a long time.

Our friend took our daughter to school whilst I stayed at home with my wife to help her calm down.

My wife feels as though she has let us all down by not being able to be left alone and this is feeding her depression. She is so down. I'm having to stay bright and cheery so that she doesn't feel that she's being a burden, I'll do my weeping in private.

About 10am my wife's best friend popped around and we spent the day doing bits and bobs. Some last minute shopping for the twins birthday party on Sunday etc.

My wife's OK most of the time when someone is with her but I have to go to work.